Holding Hands.

March 31, 2017
Day 181

     Today was a hard day. There was anger and confusion. There still is. But there was also good.

There was the soaking rain. It was so lovely.

There was a special day at school. There was lots of reading. There was my sweet student who wanted to sit right beside me while we read.

There was my husband. My husband who cleaned the entire house for me while I went grocery shopping for Patty's baby shower tomorrow.

There was Adelyn.

There was Tobin.

There was Higbee.

There was cuddling in bed with Matt.

There was holding hands with my mom after this hard day as we walked to get things from her car.

There were frozen yogurt pops.

There were beautiful flowers waiting to be put into old glass jars.

Thankful. 

God knows karate.

March 30, 2017
Day 180

Last night as I was leaving Tobin's room before bedtime, he called me back and told me he was scared. I told him he didn't need to be scared because he had his special animal friends with him and because we prayed for angels to protect him while he slept. He replied with this: "Yeah, and God knows karate." As I left his room and chuckled to myself about his sweet comment, I got to thinking...I bet God does know karate. I bet God fights for us.

Tonight while Matt and I were laying in bed talking after we put the kids to bed, he smiled very sweetly at me and said, "baby, you're so beautiful."

It was cool today.

It is going to rain tomorrow.

I got some pretty picture frames at Michael's tonight.

There are sleeping dogs in my room. I adore sleeping dogs. It's as if they exude peace into the room as they exhale.

I had soup and a sandwich for dinner.

Patty gave me a key to her new house tonight.

Tomorrow is Friday.

Tobin and Adelyn make every day funny and special and wonderful and exciting.

I got to chat with my friend, Michelle, after school today.

Thankful. 

The Christmas Morning Feeling.

March 29, 2017
Day 179

     I got to spend today at home with my little loves. Adelyn and Tobin weren't feeling well, so we spent the day at home. It was lovely to have a quiet day at home with my family. Even if it was because it was a sick day. When my kids were babies, I would sometimes get this feeling when I would go into their rooms to get them out of their cribs; it would feel like anticipation, like Christmas morning, like I had this wonderful something that no one else had. I felt that feeling often when Adelyn and Tobin were very young and still in cribs.

     I felt that feeling again today. And it makes my heart feel proud and bubbling over with joy and happiness and gratitude that I get to be the mother of Adelyn and Tobin. They are my greatest loves. My greatest source of joy. My greatest reminder to be thankful. They make every day new and fun and exciting. They get excited about tulips coming up out of the ground. They do not overlook even one detail. They experience the world as it should be experienced. Without fear, without inhibition, without an agenda.

     Thankful for Adelyn. Thankful for Tobin. Thankful that I get to be their mother.

Spectacular.

March 28, 2017
Day 178

It rained hard today.

It was gray and cloudy for a good part of the day.

The kids were in bed by 7.

Patty and I had a lovely planning session/latte date tonight.

Odette is coming soon.

Tobin and Adelyn give the best hugs and kisses.

Matt sends me text messages throughout the day to ask how my day is going.

I love getting phone calls from my mom.

I make these really tasty turkey meatballs. I make them with rolled oats instead of with breadcrumbs. They are really good with this garlic sriracha bbq sauce from Trader Joe's. Dinner was delicious tonight. I love when dinner is delicious.

I'm excited for Patty's baby shower this weekend. I can't wait to make the house look beautiful for her.

Tomorrow is Wednesday. We read a long time on Wednesday mornings at school, and that makes me happy.

The sunrise was spectacular this morning. There was a bright sunrise behind dark storm clouds. It made me happy to be up so early in the morning.

My husband hung up some new picture frames for me.

There are dogs snoring right now. I love sleeping dogs. I feel more at peace when I watch a dog sleep.

Thankful. 

Pickle-y.

March 27, 2016
Day 177

When I got home from work, Adelyn and Tobin had done their homework, the kitchen was clean, and my husband greeted me with hugs and kisses.

The dogs greet me with the sweetest happy whimpers and tail wags and sloppy kisses.

My students made me get well cards today because I'm not feeling well.

The kids were in bed by 7 tonight; courtesy of my husband.

Patty and I went grocery shopping together tonight. It was so good to spend time with my sister.

I was in bed by 9 tonight. I love writing in bed.

I have lots of pickle-y things to eat for lunch tomorrow.

My husband sends me text messages during the day. Just little messages to say, "hello," and, "I love you."

I cannot wait to meet Odette.

I'm so in love with my family. I'm blessed beyond measure to have this happy life of mine.

It rained today.

It was gray and cloudy for part of the day today.

Thankful. 

A pleasant Sunday.

March 26, 2017
Day 176

Today was a good day.

It was cool and gray and misty.

We had bagels with my mom, dad, Patty, Armando, and the kids. It's always good to be with family.

We had a birthday party for Matt's mom today. We spent our day laughing with Steph, Mario, Matt's mom, and Mario's parents. There was good food, good wine, good cake, good people, and good conversation.

I love brown-eyed dogs.

The best way to unwind after a day is with a good book followed by The Office.

I love laying in bed next to my husband.

There are exciting things coming up.

I'm getting a haircut soon. I LOVE getting my hair cut.

I'm so ready for bed. I adore bedtime. Why did I ever complain about naps as a child? I so wish someone would force me to take a nap every afternoon.

Thankf

Seven.

March 25, 2017
Day 175

Adelyn and Tobin give the best hugs and always know how to make me feel better.

Matt's mom bought me some lavender spray and some delicious looking honey.

I have one more day off.

I got a long hot shower this morning.

Spring break is coming.

There are dogs sleeping in my room.

The AC is on in my house right now. It's nice and cool.

Thankful.