I didn't know my arms were missing Tobin.

October 14, 2023

Day 2,549

     We celebrated Tobin's birthday as a family today. 

     After I River's birth and death, my arms always felt empty. Adelyn filled my heart with overwhelming joy, and she was my lighthouse during that time, but my arms still felt like they were missing something. When I first held Tobin in my arms, I knew what they were missing; my son. Tobin completed our family, and I was missing him before I even knew of his existence. 

     Thankful today and every single day for a little boy called Tobin Solomon Sanderson that I get to love and know and cherish and call my own. 

Fun Friday.

October 13, 2023

Day 2,548

Thankful for: 

A day called Friday. 

A great day at work. I love when I get a lot accomplished. 

Not having to set my alarm for tomorrow morning. 

Higbee had a bet appointment today. I love quick and easy vet appointments. 

I took Addy to the roller skating rink to go skating with friends. I love that she has a good group of friends at school. 

Two fun days ahead of celebrating Tobin. 

Four big things to be thankful for.

October 12, 2023

Day 2,547

Thankful because: 

It's almost Friday. 

The weather is nice and cool and crisp in the morning. 

We get to celebrate Tobin this weekend. 

God has richly blessed me with my incredible family, our home in the woods, our dog, health, and happiness. I did nothing to deserve it, but I am forever thankful. 

Little list of things to be happy about and thankful for.

October 11, 2023

Day 2,546

Thankful for: 

A day called Wednesday. 

The middle of the week already. 

Friends at work. 

Family at work. 

Coming home to the best home in the world. 

The forest. 

The forest in fall. 

Our house looks so festive. 

A fun weekend coming up. 

Tobin's birthday coming up. 

The "ber" months. I just love them. They make me happy. 

Here are the wonderful things about today.

October 10, 2023

Day 2,545

Thankful for: 

Cool weather. 

A fresh, new school day after a long weekend off. 

The feeling of working hard at something I love doing. It's a good feeling. 

Coming home to the best husband, dog, and home. 

Dinner was already made for tonight because I made it last night. I love when I have an easy dinner night. 

Tomorrow is Wednesday already. 

Matt ordered some surprise Halloween decorations today. I'm excited to see them. 

We ordered a new bedspread for our bed today. It's very pretty. 

The sound of Adelyn talking to a friend on the phone. 

The sound of Matt and Tobin doing homework. 

Higbee was very excited to see me when I came home today. It's good to be loved so much. 

Matt and I are going on an anniversary trip very soon. I'm so excited to spend time with my love, and I'm excited to see the beach and feel the sand and watch the waves. I'm very excited to watch the sunset and the sunrise at the beach. 

The feeling of going to bed after a good day. 

Good, relaxing day.

October 9, 2023

Day 2,544

Thankful for: 

Clouds on and off today. 

Rain on and off today. 

We all took Addy to her orthodontist consultation. She doesn't need braces right now. 

We went to Wegman's and the everyone got some food from the hot bar. 

After we took Addy back to school, Matt, Tobin, and I went shopping for new clothes for Tobin. 

Matt, Tobin, and I watched The Little Mermaid together with blankets and snacks. There were lots of cuddles. 

I made pasta and meatballs for dinner. I also made a chicken for tomorrow's dinner. 

Matt fell asleep on the couch today, and I realized that Higbee gave Matt his two favorite toys to have while he slept. It was really sweet. 

I gave Matt a haircut. 

We washed our bed sheets. Clean bed sheets feel so cozy. 

It was a good, relaxing day.

Fire pit night.

October 8, 2023

Day 2,543

Thankful for: 

A relaxing morning. 

Time with friends. 

A fire pit night. 

Wine, good food, and lots of laughter. 

Cool weather. 

Music and dancing and singing and lights. 

The forest.