Thursday, April 30, 2020

Heights.

April 30, 2020
Day 1,310

Here are all the lovely things about today:

It rained.

It was cloudy and wet outside and cozy and dry inside.

Matt was home today.

Tobin likes to come in and cuddle with me in the mornings.

Tomorrow is Friday.

I get to smell lavender all day long while I work from home.

Watching Tobin ride his bike.

Measuring the heights of Addy and Tobin on the doorframes to their rooms.




There are people that I love.

There are people that love me.

What else matters?



It was a good day. I'm thankful for it.

Wednesday, April 29, 2020

Patty.

April 29, 2020
Day 1,309

Thankful for:

Patty.

There is no one else like her.

If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be here.

She has saved me more times than I can count.

She's my very best friend in the whole wide world.

When I'm with her, I feel safe, I feel home, I feel grounded.

Thankful.


Tuesday, April 28, 2020

Silver linings.

April 28, 2020
Day 1,308

Thankful for:

family walks/bike rides.

family dinner time.

being at home with my children.

silver linings.

the green of the forest in the spring.

the smell of rain in the forest.

hugs and kisses from my children.

Patty's birthday is tomorrow.

Monday, April 27, 2020

Healing balm for the soul.

April 27, 2020
Day 1,307

     This day was amazing. The weather was lovely. The sky was blue. The clouds were puffy and white. The sun was warm. The wind was cool. We went for a bike ride in the neighborhood. Matt and I walked while the kids rode their bikes. Then we played catch in the backyard. Matt and I took some time to sit quietly and watch the trees. We had a delicious dinner; chicken with parsley, tomato, garlic, chicken stock, and parmesan cheese served over rice, with green beans, and a salad of tomato, cucumber, olives, red onion, and feta. No dressing, just a drizzle of olive oil. Then we had cupcakes for dessert. I talked with Matt's grandparents and my friends, Carmella, and Jason. It was a grand day.

     Thankful for days that are grand and good and a healing balm for the soul.

Sunday, April 26, 2020

Big Breakfast Sunday.

April 26, 2020
Day 1,306

     Today was lovely. It was rainy and cozy. We spent this day watching movies, playing games, and eating good food. We went for several rainy walks. We cuddled on the couch. It was simple, but it was good. These are the slow, lazy days that I will miss and my heart will ache for when they're gone. Childhood moves swiftly. I need to remember to keep my eyes wide open. I don't want to miss a thing.

     Thankful for:

-french toast made with brioche bread with strawberries on top, and sausage.

-"Big Breakfast Sunday." Matt thinks Sundays are for big breakfasts.

-homemade pizza.

-cupcakes.

-movies with the family.

-rainy walks down the driveway.

-umbrellas.

-the sound of Adelyn and Tobin running to catch up with me and Matt while we walk down the driveway.

-kisses.

-bedtime.

-time to read.

-time to write.

-time to crochet.

-time with family.

-time to be home.

Saturday, April 25, 2020

Matt holds my hand even when we're fighting.

April 25, 2020
Day 1,305

Thankful for:

days that threaten rain.

cloudy, overcast, dreary days.

days that end in rain.

quiet walks down the driveway.

my husband; he's literally the greatest man. God knew I needed Matt.

huge mugs of tea with apples.

this for dinner: curry chicken, basmati rice, a salad of: cucumber, tomato, red onion, black olives, and mint, and naan and a big plate of onions, curly leaf parsley, and feta cheese.

walks with Higbee.

a quiet, pleasant evening at home; the kids are watching a movie with apples, Matt's watching a show, and I'm going to take some time to write.

time for crocheting blankets.

my library; it's filled with words and books and things for writing. I love this room.

the fact that my husband loves me even when I'm unlovable.

Matt holds my hand even when we're fighting.

Frozen, frozen pops; my kids are obsessed with them right now.

it was a good day; I'm glad for it.

Friday, April 24, 2020

Reading books in bed.

April 24, 2020
Day 1,304

Thankful for:

long walks down our driveway.

bike rides and scooter rides in the neighborhood.

sitting down after a long walk.

time to crochet.

the feeling of a weekend ahead.

making pizza for dinner with the kids.

reading books to the kids in bed.

Tobin reading to us in bed.

Adelyn reading to us in bed.

time to crochet.

Matt will be home for four days starting tomorrow.

phone calls with people that I love.

Thursday, April 23, 2020

Heating pads.

April 23, 2020
Day 1,303

Thankful for:

Thursdays.

the feeling of just finishing a long day of work.

how soft the couch feels after sitting on a hard desk chair for several hours.

walks with Higbee and our family down our lovely driveway.

large cups of tea.

little bowls of cheeze-its.

Matt made dinner tonight because I wasn't feeling well.

Matt brought me tea during my virtual meetings.

time to sleep.

heating pads.

Tylenol.


Wednesday, April 22, 2020

Fear is a virus.

April 22, 2020
Day 1,302


Fear is a virus.

It starts as a tiny little seedling of a thought.

If a person entertains that seedling, it sets down roots.

Those roots are hard to pull.

It may take years to rip out what took less than a second to plant.

If fear is well watered and well fed, it gives birth to new seedlings, and the virus spreads.

If left untreated, the virus takes over completely. A person will become a slave to their own fears.

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Love and thankfulness is the cure.

It starts as a tiny ripple of a wave of defense.

If a person entertains that ripple, it starts to gain momentum.

Those waves are hard to stop.

It takes only seconds for the rushing waves to wash the virus away.

If love and thankfulness are nutured, they give birth to new feelings of happiness and joy, and it spreads.

If you practice love and thankfulness every day, they take over completely. A person will find new things within each day that make life lovely and worth living.


Tuesday, April 21, 2020

Ghost.

April 21, 2020
Day 1,301

     I went shopping today for the first time since March. It was strange. Grocery shopping is one of my favorite things to do. I love to wander down the aisles and examine all the fruits and vegetables and herbs and cheeses and breads. I will sometimes base entire meals around one herb or one loaf of bread. I'll think to myself, "I really want curly leaf parsley." And so I will go to the store and buy all the lovely things that would pair nicely with curly leaf parsely. Things like onions, feta, naan, chickpeas, curry, chicken. Or else I'll say to myself, "I really want a nice crusty bread." You know the ones. The ones with the very hard, crusty shell and the soft, slightly sour bread inside. They make a crunching noise when you cut into them.

     Today when I went shopping, I was very distracted. Distracted by masks and gloves and tape on the floor telling me to stay away from other people. There was a plexi-glass divider between me and the cashier, and after I loaded my items on the belt, she told me to go stand back behind a red line and wait to come up until she was ready for my payment. I was distracted by empty shelves and foreign brands and products standing in for the brands and products I usually buy. I went into the store thinking about radishes and basil and curly leaf parsley. I went in thinking of roasted chickens and potatoes with tumeric. And of salads made of tomato, cucumber, red onion, black olives, feta cheese, and tons of fresh mint with only a light drizzle of olive oil and a sprinkle of kosher salt and a bit of fresh cracked pepper. I left the store feeling sad, stressed out, and alone. It's easy to feel alone now. It's easy to feel as though God has forgotten about us.

     I read these words the other day in The Horse and His Boy:

 "I can't see you at all," said Shasta, after staring very hard. Then (for an even more terrible idea had come into his head) he said, almost in a scream, "You're not--not something dead, are you? Oh, please--please do go away. What harm have I ever done you? Oh, I am the unluckiest person in the whole world!" Once more he felt the warm breath of the Thing on his hand and face. "There," it said, "that is not the breath of a ghost. Tell me your sorrows."

     I like to picture God as Aslan. I like to picture Him breathing His lion's breath on me. I don't have a ghost god. I have a God that lives and breaths and tells me to tell Him of my sorrows.

     He listens. And when I'm feeling like I've been ghosted, He breaths on me.

     Thankful.

   


   

Monday, April 20, 2020

Sparkly spider eyes.

April 20, 2020
Day 1,300


     Tonight, I'm thankful for the feeling of clean skin against mine while reading to my children. I'm thankful for little kisses from tiny mouths that smile many times a day. I'm thankful for music. I'm thankful for time to teach my son. I'm thankful for quiet walks with Higbee. I'm thankful for a little deer we came across just laying down in the middle of the woods relaxing in the cool of the morning. I'm thankful for sparkly spider eyes. I'm thankful for the sound of teeth being brushed. I'm thankful for the sound of laughter. I'm thankful for a new day tomorrow morning. I'm thankful for new resolutions and revelations. I'm thankful for time at home. I'm thankful for health. I'm thankful that Tobin is feeling better this evening. I'm thankful for phone calls with grandparents. I'm thankful for phone calls with my sister and my niece. I'm thankful for the way Higbee looks at me. I'm thankful for Adelyn's very blue eyes, and for Tobin's very green eyes. I'm thankful for this lovely life. It's more than I ever could have dreamed or imagined for myself.

Sunday, April 19, 2020

Four things to be thankful about.

April 19, 2020
Day 1,299

Thankful for:

a Sunday spent at home.

a lovely Sunday meal.

time to relax.

a clean house.


Saturday, April 18, 2020

Little list of happy things.

April 18, 2020
Day 1,298

Thankful for:

Odette's 3rd birthday is today.

a socially distanced visit from friends.

a lovely day.

birthday gifts.

teacher appreciation gifts.

sitting and talking.

Higbee running.

long walks down the driveway with my family.

spider eyes.


Friday, April 17, 2020

April 17th.

April 17, 2020
Day 1,297

Thankful for:

Fridays.

pizza.

milkshakes.

Friday nights.

long walks down the driveway.

my family.

Thursday, April 16, 2020

Thusday short list.

April 16, 2020
Day 1,296

Thankful for:

pictures of babies.

healthy babies.

my family.

Matt is home for four days.

tomorrow is Friday.

Easter candy.

tea.


Wednesday, April 15, 2020

Oliver Shane is here!!!

April 15, 2020
Day 1,295

Thankful:

that I got to wake up this morning to several pictures of my friend's brand new baby girl.

for a baby girl named, Kiera Louise. She's a beauty!

for the birth of my brand new nephew, Olive Shane. He's absolutely adorable!

texts and pictures from my brother and my sister-in-law.


time to make dinner with my babies.

for spilling a bunch of green lentils on the floor; the kids and I were laughing about it.

another delicious homemade soup.

the sound of my household settled in for the night.

Matt is off for the next four days in a row.

Tuesday, April 14, 2020

Three things on a Tuesday.

April 14, 2020
Day 1,294

Thankful for:

talks on the couch with my love when I'm feeling frustrated.

a delicious dinner of rice, chicken, and brussel sprouts.

the feeling of being home for a long, long time with all my loves.


Monday, April 13, 2020

Monday short list.

April 13, 2020
Day 1,293

Thankful for:

a completely cleaned house; from top to bottom.

time to sit and watch movies with my babies.

time to crochet a fun blanket. I'm crocheting a blanket with all my leftover yarn from previous projects. It's crazy looking, but I kind of like it.

homemade soup; the kids helped me make it.

working on cooking skills with the kids.

a lovely Monday with my babies and my furry baby.

Sunday, April 12, 2020

A very special Easter.

April 12, 2020
Day 1,292

Thankful for:

Easter baskets in the morning.

Matt coming home in the morning with extra Easter treats for our babies.

Easter plates, napkins, and tablecloths.

a big breakfast of eggs, bacon, sausage, and bagels.

time spent with family in the morning.

the movie, The Ten Commandments. 

laughing with family.

taking communion with family.

an Easter egg hunt with all my favorite little ones: Casey, Addy, Tobin, Sophia, Ryker, and Odette.

a delicious Easter dinner.

homemade Irish soda bread.

leftover ham to make soup with.

decorating bunny cakes with all my favorite littles.

coloring Easter eggs with all my favorite littles.

watching movies with my family.

an Easter play put on by Addy, Casey, Tobin, and Phia.

the entire day spent at home with my family.

Saturday, April 11, 2020

An apple a day with Higbee.

April 11, 2020
Day 1,291

Thankful for:

Saturdays.

days for movies.

days for cleaning.

sharing an apple in bed with Higbee.

tea.

shows on Amazon Prime and Netflix.

walking around and enjoying our yard after all the hard work we put in yesterday.

Friday, April 10, 2020

Home is the very best place in the world.

April 10, 2020
Day 1,290

     Today was lovely. We spent this entire glorious day outside. We did yard work all day long. It was hard work, but it was good work. I'm very proud of how beautiful our yard looks right now. The sun was warm, the wind was cold, and the sky was very blue. The kids climbed trees. I planted lavender and rosemary. I made a spiral out of rocks in our garden. I feel accomplished. And our yard looks amazing. We ordered pizza for dinner, and it was super delicious. We saw a fox in our yard today, and we saw baby bear cubs yesterday. Thankful for this day that was spent outside, at our home, with just our family. Thankful for the cozy warmth of our home. Thankful for clean kids in bed before 8:30. Thankful for three more days of being home ahead of me. Home is the very best place in the world.


Thursday, April 9, 2020

Things to be thankful for on a Thursday.

April 9, 2020
Day 1,289

Thankful for:

the wind.

the sky.

the way the trees look when they blow in the wind.

the last of the leftover cake.

a delicious dinner of chicken, chick-peas, potatoes, rice, and a salad made of tomatoes, cucumbers, mint, feta, olives, red onion, and olive oil drizzled over the top. All paired with hot naan bread.

red wine.

walks down the driveway with my husband and our babies.

Higbee.

a clean house.

the way our house looks when the sun shines in.

the feeling of our wood floors under my feet.

the sound of wind hitting our house.

having four more days off for spring break.

Oliver and my sister-in-love are safe and healthy.



Wednesday, April 8, 2020

Leftover cake.

April 8, 2020
Day 1,288

Thankful for:

a lazy day.

the smell and feeling of being home.

laying in bed with my husband.

kisses and hugs from my babies.

things to be thankful for.

leftover cake.

music.

windows.

walks down the driveway.


Tuesday, April 7, 2020

April 7th. My birthday. A very fine day.

April 7, 2020
Day 1,287

Thankful for:

Chick-fil-a breakfast in bed.

the most beautiful birthday cake ever.

amazing birthday gifts. Matt got me a komuso necklace and a coffee grinder.

corned beef and cabbage.

sex; thrice.

walks down the driveway.

flowers.

a clean house.

a day to relax.

the sweet gift of love that is my children.

words spoken to me by my husband and my children.

a very fine day.

Monday, April 6, 2020

Cuddling with Odette.

April 6, 2020
Day 1,286

Thankful for:

Armando fixing our vehicles for us.

spending the day at Patty's.

cuddling with Odette.

being able to help Patty.

laughter.

seeing the kids have fun.

Patty's meals; she makes good food.

Matt is home to celebrate my real birthday with me tomorrow.

things to be thankful for.

Sunday, April 5, 2020

The best Sunday.

April 5, 2020
Day 1,285

Thankful for:

a lovely Sunday.

a birthday party with Matt's family.

delicious food and appetizers.

ice cream cake in the afternoon.

the best wine.

the best company.

time to laugh with family.

time spent outside.

bees.

soccer in the yard.

lovely and thoughtful gifts.

a birthday party with my family.

my dad helping us chop wood.

delicious food.

ice cream cake in the evening.

the best company.

laughter.

the sound of kids playing together.

Higbee; even when he's bad, I still love him.

leftover cake in my freezer to eat tomorrow.

people who love me.

lovely gifts.

lavender to plant.

Saturday, April 4, 2020

Time to be in the woods.

April 4, 2020
Day 1,284

Thankful for:

Saturdays.

time to clean.

the feeling of relaxing in a clean home.

time to organize.

time to be at home.

walks in the woods.

time to relax and watch shows on the couch.

the feeling of hope; hope that everything will be okay.

Friday, April 3, 2020

Friday four.

April 3, 2020
Day 1,283

Thankful for:

Friday.

Friday night.

the start of spring break.

time to be quiet and relax.

Thursday, April 2, 2020

The feeling of cozy.

April 2, 2020
Day 1,282

Thankful for:

one more day until spring break.

things to smile about.

things to laugh about.

the feeling of cozy.

the feeling of being home.

the smell of our home.

the feeling of little arms hugging me.

the feeling of little lips kissing me.

the sound of my children playing.

the sound of my children's voices.

lovely things.

Wednesday, April 1, 2020

The feel of wood floor under my feet.

April 1, 2020
Day 1,281

Thankful for:

spring break coming soon.

a good day at home with my family.

my students.

Higbee.

my family.

our home.

the feel of of the wood floor under my feet.

sweaters and socks.