May 31, 2020
Day 1,331
I'm thankful for whiney voices saying, "Moooooom, I'm hungry."
I like when the sun comes in the windows just right. It's a sweet spot between bright and shady.
I like the purple flowers of my lavender plants.
I like cool evenings when you almost need a sweatshirt.
I'm thankful for family reunions.
I like Sunday family dinners.
I like homemade graduation signs.
I'm thankful for a big sheet cake with these names written on it: Casey, Addy, Tobin, and Sophia.
I like days where I don't wear any makeup.
I'm thankful for chairs in the driveway.
I'm thankful for the walls of our home. I love these walls. I love our windows. I love this space more than any other space I know. I never knew I could love a home so much as I love this one.
I like having a clean house, a freshly cut lawn, and not much on my agenda for the upcoming days.
I love beautiful music.
I'm excited to see my students tomorrow.
I'm thankful that it's almost the end of the school year.
I'm excited to go to the beach soon.
I like talking about future plans for our gardens at home. Planting and gardening has become a joy in my life.
I love the way my husband kisses me and touches me.
I'm thankful for the love of my children. I don't deserve such beautiful, pure, uncomplicated love.
I'm thankful for many books to read. I love having books to flip through.
I love the feeling of a wide open summer. With no plans except to be home.
Sunday, May 31, 2020
Saturday, May 30, 2020
Resolve.
May 30, 2020
Day 1,330
I wish I had something eloquent to say. I wish I could say that today was lovely. That I was the best mother and did lots of fun things with my children. That I cleaned my house. That I exercised. That I did the things I should have been doing. But I didn't.
I mostly wasted time laying around.
I accomplished some things. I cleaned and organized three rooms: Adelyn's, Tobin's, and the playroom.
I made breakfast, lunch, and dinner for my kids.
I fed Higbee and took him out.
I watered my plants.
I listened to music.
I talked to my family and my friends.
But there is so much more I could have done and didn't.
Matt texted and told me he is currently in Manassas, VA. There are riots there.
It's funny how something like the threat of danger makes you realize in one instant all the things you did wrong with a day.
I didn't soak up every minute of Adelyn and Tobin.
I didn't soak up every minute of being home.
I didn't text my husband enough.
I didn't think about him enough.
I didn't pray for his safety.
I didn't tell him that I loved him today.
Here is what I'm thankful for: resolve.
I know what I have to do to make tomorrow different than today.
And tomorrow, I will do it.
Day 1,330
I wish I had something eloquent to say. I wish I could say that today was lovely. That I was the best mother and did lots of fun things with my children. That I cleaned my house. That I exercised. That I did the things I should have been doing. But I didn't.
I mostly wasted time laying around.
I accomplished some things. I cleaned and organized three rooms: Adelyn's, Tobin's, and the playroom.
I made breakfast, lunch, and dinner for my kids.
I fed Higbee and took him out.
I watered my plants.
I listened to music.
I talked to my family and my friends.
But there is so much more I could have done and didn't.
Matt texted and told me he is currently in Manassas, VA. There are riots there.
It's funny how something like the threat of danger makes you realize in one instant all the things you did wrong with a day.
I didn't soak up every minute of Adelyn and Tobin.
I didn't soak up every minute of being home.
I didn't text my husband enough.
I didn't think about him enough.
I didn't pray for his safety.
I didn't tell him that I loved him today.
Here is what I'm thankful for: resolve.
I know what I have to do to make tomorrow different than today.
And tomorrow, I will do it.
Friday, May 29, 2020
Good hasn't disappeared.
May 29, 2020
Day 1,329
"Lord, make me an instrument of your peace."
I have been saying those words over and over again. When the world is loud, I retreat inwards. I try to focus on what I can do. I can love. I can be thankful. I can say kind words. I can take care of my children. I can take care of my dog. I can be quiet. I can create a peaceful and orderly home for my family to live in.
I can choose to focus on that which is good and lovely and peaceful and beautiful.
And that is what I will do. Minute after minute. Day after day. Month after month. Year after year.
I will choose to see the good. And when I can't see it easily, I will go out looking for it. It's there. Sometimes, it's hidden just as the sun is hidden behind storm clouds.
Good hasn't disappeared. Storms are just hiding it. But it's there. It's always there.
Thankful for good.
Thankful for prayers of peace.
Thankful for storm clouds. They prompt us to search for the sun.
Thankful for light.
Thankful for love.
Day 1,329
"Lord, make me an instrument of your peace."
I have been saying those words over and over again. When the world is loud, I retreat inwards. I try to focus on what I can do. I can love. I can be thankful. I can say kind words. I can take care of my children. I can take care of my dog. I can be quiet. I can create a peaceful and orderly home for my family to live in.
I can choose to focus on that which is good and lovely and peaceful and beautiful.
And that is what I will do. Minute after minute. Day after day. Month after month. Year after year.
I will choose to see the good. And when I can't see it easily, I will go out looking for it. It's there. Sometimes, it's hidden just as the sun is hidden behind storm clouds.
Good hasn't disappeared. Storms are just hiding it. But it's there. It's always there.
Thankful for good.
Thankful for prayers of peace.
Thankful for storm clouds. They prompt us to search for the sun.
Thankful for light.
Thankful for love.
Thursday, May 28, 2020
The world outside is loud.
May 28, 2020
Day 1,328
"All these walls I've built are comfortable,
and the world outside is loud." -United Pursuit
The world feels very loud right now.
I think maybe because it's so loud, I feel especially thankful for the peaceful quiet of the forest. I am thankful for the forest where life keeps on going on as it should be. Frogs croak. Birds sing. Rabbits hop. Deer run. The sun shines. The rain falls. Spiders spin. Lizards scurry away. Plants grow.
This is a good place. It's a place filled with lovely.
Thankful.
Day 1,328
"All these walls I've built are comfortable,
and the world outside is loud." -United Pursuit
The world feels very loud right now.
I think maybe because it's so loud, I feel especially thankful for the peaceful quiet of the forest. I am thankful for the forest where life keeps on going on as it should be. Frogs croak. Birds sing. Rabbits hop. Deer run. The sun shines. The rain falls. Spiders spin. Lizards scurry away. Plants grow.
This is a good place. It's a place filled with lovely.
Thankful.
Wednesday, May 27, 2020
Mother Teresa, Martin Luther King Jr., Peace Prayer of St. Francis
May 27, 2020
Day 1,327
I felt weighed down by the weight of the world today. I heard about three news stories, and they made me feel anxious. That is the very reason why I don't watch the news. For my own mental health and sanity, I have to stay uninformed and unaware. When I watch the news, I am reminded of all that is scary and fearsome in this world.
I like to remember this quote by Mother Teresa, "If you want to change the world, go home and love your family." This is something I live by. Loving Adelyn and Tobin is my life's greatest calling.
I remember this quote by Martin Luther King Jr., "Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that." When things are dark, turn on a light. When things are hateful, douce it with love.
I remember this Peace Prayer of St. Francis:
"Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
And where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master, grant that I may not
so much seek to be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand,
to be loved as to love;
For it is in giving that we receive;
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in the dying that we are born to eternal life."
Sometimes, I just pray like this, "God, help." I prayed that way today.
Thankful that tomorrow is a new day. Thankful that I can pray. Thankful that for today, we were all home together, and everyone is safe and healthy.
Day 1,327
I felt weighed down by the weight of the world today. I heard about three news stories, and they made me feel anxious. That is the very reason why I don't watch the news. For my own mental health and sanity, I have to stay uninformed and unaware. When I watch the news, I am reminded of all that is scary and fearsome in this world.
I like to remember this quote by Mother Teresa, "If you want to change the world, go home and love your family." This is something I live by. Loving Adelyn and Tobin is my life's greatest calling.
I remember this quote by Martin Luther King Jr., "Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that." When things are dark, turn on a light. When things are hateful, douce it with love.
I remember this Peace Prayer of St. Francis:
"Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
And where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master, grant that I may not
so much seek to be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand,
to be loved as to love;
For it is in giving that we receive;
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in the dying that we are born to eternal life."
Sometimes, I just pray like this, "God, help." I prayed that way today.
Thankful that tomorrow is a new day. Thankful that I can pray. Thankful that for today, we were all home together, and everyone is safe and healthy.
Tuesday, May 26, 2020
The feeling of being safe.
May 26, 2020
Day 1,326
Thankful for:
Matt.
Adelyn.
Tobin.
Higbee.
Our home.
The smell of our home.
The forest that surrounds our home.
The feeling of being home together.
Reading books in bed to my babies.
Books so good they make you cry.
The feeling of being safe.
Day 1,326
Thankful for:
Matt.
Adelyn.
Tobin.
Higbee.
Our home.
The smell of our home.
The forest that surrounds our home.
The feeling of being home together.
Reading books in bed to my babies.
Books so good they make you cry.
The feeling of being safe.
Monday, May 25, 2020
Black beginning.
May 25, 2020
Day 1,325
This was a good day. I spent this morning fighting with Matt. Crying and telling my truths. I had to go grocery shopping, and when I left, Matt and I still hadn't resolved anything. It's a thirty minute drive to Wegman's. I cried the whole way there and the whole way back. When I got back home, we talked and hugged and got better. Here is why that was good: we fight because we care deeply. If we didn't care deeply, we wouldn't fight.
We took a drive to my brother's house and had a cookout. It was a really fun time. We had good food, got to hang out with baby Oliver, and laughed a lot. Odette and I played a fun game that made us laugh so hard. We looked at flowers. We admired the scenery. We watched a deer. Shane gathered everyone together before we ate and prayed for our meal and for our family. While he was praying, I was thanking God for such a sweet moment.
I'm thankful for a lovely day. I'm thankful for family. For prayers said before meals. For Adelyn and Tobin. For Casey, Phia, and Odette. For my mom and dad. For Shane and Cheyenne. For Ryker and Oliver. For new homes. For mountains and rivers and wildflowers. For rocks and roses. For paper plates and ice cream. This day was one of those days that starts off feeling horrible, but it ends up being wonderful. It reminds me of this quote by Katherine Applegate: "I like colorful tales with black beginnings, stormy middles, and cloudless blue-sky endings."
Thankful for this day that started off black, had a very stormy middle, and a cloudless blue-sky ending in the mountains.
Day 1,325
This was a good day. I spent this morning fighting with Matt. Crying and telling my truths. I had to go grocery shopping, and when I left, Matt and I still hadn't resolved anything. It's a thirty minute drive to Wegman's. I cried the whole way there and the whole way back. When I got back home, we talked and hugged and got better. Here is why that was good: we fight because we care deeply. If we didn't care deeply, we wouldn't fight.
We took a drive to my brother's house and had a cookout. It was a really fun time. We had good food, got to hang out with baby Oliver, and laughed a lot. Odette and I played a fun game that made us laugh so hard. We looked at flowers. We admired the scenery. We watched a deer. Shane gathered everyone together before we ate and prayed for our meal and for our family. While he was praying, I was thanking God for such a sweet moment.
I'm thankful for a lovely day. I'm thankful for family. For prayers said before meals. For Adelyn and Tobin. For Casey, Phia, and Odette. For my mom and dad. For Shane and Cheyenne. For Ryker and Oliver. For new homes. For mountains and rivers and wildflowers. For rocks and roses. For paper plates and ice cream. This day was one of those days that starts off feeling horrible, but it ends up being wonderful. It reminds me of this quote by Katherine Applegate: "I like colorful tales with black beginnings, stormy middles, and cloudless blue-sky endings."
Thankful for this day that started off black, had a very stormy middle, and a cloudless blue-sky ending in the mountains.
Sunday, May 24, 2020
Peace Prayer
May 24, 2020
Day 1,324
Thankful for these things today:
Holding hands with Matt when we're in the middle of a fight. It means, we'll always be okay and I love you.
Matt's words: "We'll always be okay." He loves me forever. I have no doubt of that.
A drizzly morning.
Getting coffee with Armando this morning. A decaf double tall one pump hazelnut whole milk latte was what I needed this morning.
Armando made brisket for us all today.
Shane, Cheyenne, Ryker, and Oliver came over today. I got to hold baby Oliver a lot. It was a sweet day.
A clean house; twice today.
My dad went to the store three times for us all today. Just so we could have a lovely Sunday meal. It was a good Sunday.
Dirty feet.
Bare feet children running in the grass.
Higbee and I hanging out in the hammock together; that dog will try anything.
The feeling of no school tomorrow.
The feeling of summer vacation coming very soon.
Pasta salad and tea at 12:48 am.
A good phone call with Jason; I'm very thankful for our friendship.
A fresh start every morning. The day will be what I make it.
The peace prayer of St. Frances:
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace:
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy.
O divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand,
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Amen.
Day 1,324
Thankful for these things today:
Holding hands with Matt when we're in the middle of a fight. It means, we'll always be okay and I love you.
Matt's words: "We'll always be okay." He loves me forever. I have no doubt of that.
A drizzly morning.
Getting coffee with Armando this morning. A decaf double tall one pump hazelnut whole milk latte was what I needed this morning.
Armando made brisket for us all today.
Shane, Cheyenne, Ryker, and Oliver came over today. I got to hold baby Oliver a lot. It was a sweet day.
A clean house; twice today.
My dad went to the store three times for us all today. Just so we could have a lovely Sunday meal. It was a good Sunday.
Dirty feet.
Bare feet children running in the grass.
Higbee and I hanging out in the hammock together; that dog will try anything.
The feeling of no school tomorrow.
The feeling of summer vacation coming very soon.
Pasta salad and tea at 12:48 am.
A good phone call with Jason; I'm very thankful for our friendship.
A fresh start every morning. The day will be what I make it.
The peace prayer of St. Frances:
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace:
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy.
O divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand,
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Amen.
Saturday, May 23, 2020
Gardening, laughter, love.
May 23, 2020
Day 1,323
Thankful for:
a day to do some gardening; I planted cilantro, parsley, thyme, tomato, and cucumber. I also mulched my lavendar and rosemary garden.
a nap.
my husband.
laying in the hammock with Matt.
laughing with Matt.
hearing Addy and Tobin play together outside.
being on our own land.
a fire pit night.
roasted hot dogs.
roasted marshmellows.
smores.
wine.
one American Spirit.
the physical act of love.
twice.
a grand Saturday.
Day 1,323
Thankful for:
a day to do some gardening; I planted cilantro, parsley, thyme, tomato, and cucumber. I also mulched my lavendar and rosemary garden.
a nap.
my husband.
laying in the hammock with Matt.
laughing with Matt.
hearing Addy and Tobin play together outside.
being on our own land.
a fire pit night.
roasted hot dogs.
roasted marshmellows.
smores.
wine.
one American Spirit.
the physical act of love.
twice.
a grand Saturday.
Friday, May 22, 2020
Thankful list; Patty and plants; melancholy.
May 22, 2020
Day 1,322
1. Thankful to be able to make someone's day with a birthday parade! Thankful for a dinner of curry chicken and rice, chickpeas, and a salad of tomato, cucumber, red onion, black olives, curly leaf parsley, and olive oil. Thankful for a giant mug of tea with honey and lemon. Thankful for an apple to share with Higbee while we lay in bed together. Thankful for rain. Thankful for mama spiders. Thankful for beautiful things. Thankful for simple pleasures. Thankful for a good Friday.
2. I got to spend some time with Patty today; that was so nice. We went shopping at Merrifield Garden Center and Lowe's. I got some new herbs and a tomato and cucumber plant. I'm excited to plant them tomorrow. I'm excited to mulch my rock spiral and lavender garden. I'm excited to have three days at home with Matt and the kids this weekend.
3. I'm feeling a bit melancholy right now, but I've learned that feelings come and go. The only thing to do right now is drink tea, read a book, go to bed, and wait for the light of morning. Everything always looks brighter in the morning.
Day 1,322
1. Thankful to be able to make someone's day with a birthday parade! Thankful for a dinner of curry chicken and rice, chickpeas, and a salad of tomato, cucumber, red onion, black olives, curly leaf parsley, and olive oil. Thankful for a giant mug of tea with honey and lemon. Thankful for an apple to share with Higbee while we lay in bed together. Thankful for rain. Thankful for mama spiders. Thankful for beautiful things. Thankful for simple pleasures. Thankful for a good Friday.
2. I got to spend some time with Patty today; that was so nice. We went shopping at Merrifield Garden Center and Lowe's. I got some new herbs and a tomato and cucumber plant. I'm excited to plant them tomorrow. I'm excited to mulch my rock spiral and lavender garden. I'm excited to have three days at home with Matt and the kids this weekend.
3. I'm feeling a bit melancholy right now, but I've learned that feelings come and go. The only thing to do right now is drink tea, read a book, go to bed, and wait for the light of morning. Everything always looks brighter in the morning.
Thursday, May 21, 2020
They make everything full.
May 21, 2020
Day 1,321
Today, I had a thought while I was washing the dishes: I miss bathing my babies. It has been so long since I had to bathe them, it makes my heart ache. I wish I could go back in time just for one day and look at their baby faces once more. I wish I could go back and hold them and rock them to sleep in a rocker. I read this somewhere...I'm not sure where it was or who said it: "One time your parents put your down and never picked you back up again." That's a sad thought. It's easy to be sad when you're missing sweet days.
But now, we're here. And here is a very fine place to be as well. Ten years from now, I'll look back on these days and miss them.
Lesson learned: each minute I get to spend with my loves is a minute well spent indeed.
Thankful for two lovely souls named Adelyn and Tobin. They make life worth living. They make everything full. Full of happy. Full of joy. Full of laughter. Full of love.
Day 1,321
Today, I had a thought while I was washing the dishes: I miss bathing my babies. It has been so long since I had to bathe them, it makes my heart ache. I wish I could go back in time just for one day and look at their baby faces once more. I wish I could go back and hold them and rock them to sleep in a rocker. I read this somewhere...I'm not sure where it was or who said it: "One time your parents put your down and never picked you back up again." That's a sad thought. It's easy to be sad when you're missing sweet days.
But now, we're here. And here is a very fine place to be as well. Ten years from now, I'll look back on these days and miss them.
Lesson learned: each minute I get to spend with my loves is a minute well spent indeed.
Thankful for two lovely souls named Adelyn and Tobin. They make life worth living. They make everything full. Full of happy. Full of joy. Full of laughter. Full of love.
Wednesday, May 20, 2020
Yard work.
May 20, 2020
Day 1,320
Today, these things made me happy and feel thankful:
waking up next to my husband; he came home very early this morning.
an early morning walk with Tobin; he woke me to make sure we'd have time to walk.
the forest in the morning.
the fact that Matt was home today.
being able to make nice lunches and dinners for my family.
being home with my family; I love being home with my family.
sitting down after dinner to talk with Matt.
working outside on the yard; Matt cut the grass, I pulled weeds, watered my flowers, weeded our brick walkway, and Matt cleaned the garage.
tacos for dinner.
tea and apples and books in bed.
C.S. Lewis
chats with friends.
the way Higbee looks at me when we really wants an apple.
bedtime.
the week is almost over and it's a three day weekend.
Day 1,320
Today, these things made me happy and feel thankful:
waking up next to my husband; he came home very early this morning.
an early morning walk with Tobin; he woke me to make sure we'd have time to walk.
the forest in the morning.
the fact that Matt was home today.
being able to make nice lunches and dinners for my family.
being home with my family; I love being home with my family.
sitting down after dinner to talk with Matt.
working outside on the yard; Matt cut the grass, I pulled weeds, watered my flowers, weeded our brick walkway, and Matt cleaned the garage.
tacos for dinner.
tea and apples and books in bed.
C.S. Lewis
chats with friends.
the way Higbee looks at me when we really wants an apple.
bedtime.
the week is almost over and it's a three day weekend.
Tuesday, May 19, 2020
New books came in the mail today.
May 19, 2020
Day 1,319
Things to be thankful for:
the sound of Tobin reading books about animals in his room.
reading to my babies in bed before bedtime.
a clean kitchen, clean kids, and the feeling of being ready for bedtime by 8 pm.
easy lunch, easy dinner; Matt is working 24 hours today.
Matt will be home tomorrow.
"Tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it." -L.M. Montgomery
Higbee being sweet and sleepy.
laughing hard with my sister on the phone.
black olives.
tea in bed.
new books came in the mail today; I love new books. I love the smell of them. The feel of them. The words just waiting to be read.
Day 1,319
Things to be thankful for:
the sound of Tobin reading books about animals in his room.
reading to my babies in bed before bedtime.
a clean kitchen, clean kids, and the feeling of being ready for bedtime by 8 pm.
easy lunch, easy dinner; Matt is working 24 hours today.
Matt will be home tomorrow.
"Tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it." -L.M. Montgomery
Higbee being sweet and sleepy.
laughing hard with my sister on the phone.
black olives.
tea in bed.
new books came in the mail today; I love new books. I love the smell of them. The feel of them. The words just waiting to be read.
Monday, May 18, 2020
Tobin's ladybug story.
May 18, 2020
Day 1,318
Thankful for:
books in the mail.
the forest.
my family.
Higbee.
coffee.
tea.
feta cheese.
wood floors.
socks.
sweaters.
gray days.
cool days.
grocery stores.
fruits and vegetables and crusty bread and cheese.
hot tea.
sitting up very late with Adelyn and watching Anne with an E.
shredded wheat cereal.
Tobin's ladybug story he wrote for school today.
hearing Tobin talk about animals all day long.
the Ranger Rick magazine coming to our house soon.
new books coming to our house soon.
I get to stay home all day tomorrow with my children; it's such a gift.
new days that come with every dawn.
messages from friends.
phone calls with friends.
phone calls with family.
the combination: red onion, cucumber, tomato, black olives, feta, fresh curly leaf parsley and a drizzle of olive oil and a sprinkle of kosher salt and pepper. I could it eat it all. day. long.
our home.
our land.
lavender growing.
the idea to grow wildflowers by the side of our barn shed.
the idea to start my herb garden on our deck.
time to sleep.
Day 1,318
Thankful for:
books in the mail.
the forest.
my family.
Higbee.
coffee.
tea.
feta cheese.
wood floors.
socks.
sweaters.
gray days.
cool days.
grocery stores.
fruits and vegetables and crusty bread and cheese.
hot tea.
sitting up very late with Adelyn and watching Anne with an E.
shredded wheat cereal.
Tobin's ladybug story he wrote for school today.
hearing Tobin talk about animals all day long.
the Ranger Rick magazine coming to our house soon.
new books coming to our house soon.
I get to stay home all day tomorrow with my children; it's such a gift.
new days that come with every dawn.
messages from friends.
phone calls with friends.
phone calls with family.
the combination: red onion, cucumber, tomato, black olives, feta, fresh curly leaf parsley and a drizzle of olive oil and a sprinkle of kosher salt and pepper. I could it eat it all. day. long.
our home.
our land.
lavender growing.
the idea to grow wildflowers by the side of our barn shed.
the idea to start my herb garden on our deck.
time to sleep.
Sunday, May 17, 2020
A field full of red flowers.
May 17, 2020
Day 1,317
Thankful for:
a Sunday morning at home with my babies.
a beatiful drive through the moutains to see my brother's new home.
holding baby Oliver for the very first time.
the smell of a new baby.
exploring a new outdoor area.
wildflowers.
fields full of red flowers.
rivers.
creeks.
coming home to the best dog, Higbee.
time to crochet my blanket.
the feeling of not having to go anywhere tomorrow by my library and my backyard.
hugs and cuddles from my babies.
getting to see my parents for a few minutes today.
helping my mom and dad put Ryker's bed together.
peonies.
lilac.
spiders carrying egg sacs.
birds.
hawks in trees.
the sound of my children's voices.
laughter.
watching AFV together while eating fries and nuggets.
vanilla milkshakes.
reading books to my babies in bed.
a fine Sunday.
Matt will be home tomorrow: I'm excited to see him.
things to be thankful for.
Day 1,317
Thankful for:
a Sunday morning at home with my babies.
a beatiful drive through the moutains to see my brother's new home.
holding baby Oliver for the very first time.
the smell of a new baby.
exploring a new outdoor area.
wildflowers.
fields full of red flowers.
rivers.
creeks.
coming home to the best dog, Higbee.
time to crochet my blanket.
the feeling of not having to go anywhere tomorrow by my library and my backyard.
hugs and cuddles from my babies.
getting to see my parents for a few minutes today.
helping my mom and dad put Ryker's bed together.
peonies.
lilac.
spiders carrying egg sacs.
birds.
hawks in trees.
the sound of my children's voices.
laughter.
watching AFV together while eating fries and nuggets.
vanilla milkshakes.
reading books to my babies in bed.
a fine Sunday.
Matt will be home tomorrow: I'm excited to see him.
things to be thankful for.
Saturday, May 16, 2020
The feeling of coming home after a day out.
May 16, 2020
Day 1,316
Thankful for:
talks with Stephanie.
sidewalks.
snakes.
football.
people walking.
belated Mother's Day celebrations.
bbq takeout.
big blankets.
beautiful flowers.
presents from Matt's mom; she's the Leslie Knope of gift giving. In fact...she might even put Leslie Knope to shame.
birds.
the feeling of coming home after a day out.
turning off all the lights at home and embracing the dark of the country at night.
phone calls with family and friends.
books coming in the mail soon.
notes in the mail.
fresh bedsheets.
Day 1,316
Thankful for:
talks with Stephanie.
sidewalks.
snakes.
football.
people walking.
belated Mother's Day celebrations.
bbq takeout.
big blankets.
beautiful flowers.
presents from Matt's mom; she's the Leslie Knope of gift giving. In fact...she might even put Leslie Knope to shame.
birds.
the feeling of coming home after a day out.
turning off all the lights at home and embracing the dark of the country at night.
phone calls with family and friends.
books coming in the mail soon.
notes in the mail.
fresh bedsheets.
Friday, May 15, 2020
The wide openness.
May 15, 2020
Day 1,315
Thankful for:
Fridays. Even when working from home, Friday just has a feel to it, and I love it.
music.
the wide openness of an upcoming weekend.
birds.
my home; my little space in this world where people and animals and plants are loved and cared for.
the brown of Higbee's eyes.
the green of Matt's eyes.
the Amazon river in Tobin's eyes.
the bluest ocean water in Adelyn's eyes.
the feeling of being surrounded by people whom I love deeply.
Day 1,315
Thankful for:
Fridays. Even when working from home, Friday just has a feel to it, and I love it.
music.
the wide openness of an upcoming weekend.
birds.
my home; my little space in this world where people and animals and plants are loved and cared for.
the brown of Higbee's eyes.
the green of Matt's eyes.
the Amazon river in Tobin's eyes.
the bluest ocean water in Adelyn's eyes.
the feeling of being surrounded by people whom I love deeply.
Thursday, May 14, 2020
Something big.
May 14, 2020
Day 1,314
Thankful for:
the possibilities of this blank canvas on which to write that which has never been written.
the feeling that something big is inside me somewhere; hidden and waiting to break out.
things to be thankful for.
Day 1,314
Thankful for:
the possibilities of this blank canvas on which to write that which has never been written.
the feeling that something big is inside me somewhere; hidden and waiting to break out.
things to be thankful for.
Wednesday, May 13, 2020
Four things on a Wednesday.
May 13, 2020
Day 1,313
Thankful for:
today is the first day of Matt's four days off.
Wednesdays.
time to see my students through a zoom call.
learning things I didn't know before.
Day 1,313
Thankful for:
today is the first day of Matt's four days off.
Wednesdays.
time to see my students through a zoom call.
learning things I didn't know before.
Tuesday, May 12, 2020
Toasted bits of garlic, onion, rye, and sesame seeds.
May 12, 2020
Day 1,312
Thankful for:
talks with my grandma.
talks with Matt's grandma.
talks with Patty.
texts with Matt.
a cool, beautiful, glorious day.
puffy white clouds.
cool air.
hot tea.
homemade soup with way too much garlic, but it's okay because garlic is the best.
my fingers smelling of garlic.
my lavender difusing necklace smelling of lavender and garlic.
bagels with butter.
toasted bits of garlic, onion, rye, and sesame seeds.
this space on which to write the things that make me happy.
the smell of Higbee.
the white of my children's teeth.
the blue of Adelyn's eyes.
the green of Tobin's eyes.
sitting in our freshly painted living room just admiring the pretty walls; I never thought I could appreciate a wall so much.
windows.
the smell of our home.
the feel of the floor under my feet; I love the way certain boards crack when you walk over them.
crunchy gravel.
time to ride a bike. I rode my new bike in the back yard with the kids today, and it was great fun!
a quiet day; we didn't even walk down the driveway.
my students.
home; the word, the place, the feeling, the smell.
Monday, May 11, 2020
Things to be thankful for on a Monday.
May 11, 2020
Day 1,311
Thankful for:
new yarn! I'm so excited to make this new blanket.
time with my sister.
time to go grocery shopping.
enough food to fill our bellies for the week.
my beautiful home.
my beautiful family.
knowing that this our forever home.
playing in the yard.
books before bed with my babies.
being home.
time to read.
time to write.
music.
a clean kitchen.
Sunday, May 10, 2020
Mother's Day Sunday
May 10, 2020
Day 1,310
Thankful for the following:
my family.
Sunday dinners with my family.
the flavor of garlic, parsley, tomato, butter, and parmesan all mixed together.
Higbee cuddling in bed right now.
apples.
tea.
apple crisp and vanilla ice cream.
a clean house.
open windows.
funny movies.
Mother's Day.
all the mothers that I love.
Saturday, May 9, 2020
Baby birds.
May 9, 2020
Day 1,319
Thankful for:
Adelyn.
River.
Tobin.
Matt.
Higbee.
Our home.
Hammocks.
The forest.
Baby birds.
Flowers.
Take out Panera.
Sandwiches and soup.
Friday, May 8, 2020
Another day to be thankful for.
May 8, 2020
Day 1,318
Thankful for:
the fact that tomorrow is a new day.
rainy walks down the driveway.
umbrellas.
showers.
hugs and cuddles with my little loves.
Higbee; it was a lazy day.
messages from people I love.
phone calls with people I love.
the feeling of almost being finished with a huge project.
Schitt's Creek.
mint tea.
my bed.
my warm, cozy home.
the end of another day to be thankful for.
Thursday, May 7, 2020
Snakes and toads.
May 7, 2020
Day 1,317
Thankful for:
baby birds in nests.
mama birds feeding the baby birds.
fixing up our garden; it feels good to get my hands full of dirt.
finding snakes in the yard.
finding toads in the yard.
space to be outside and feel alive and breath fresh air.
days spent entirely with my family.
Wednesday, May 6, 2020
The loves of my life.
May 6, 2020
Day 1,316
Thankful for:
cards and gifts from my students.
people who love me.
the feeling of a fresh, new day; with no mistakes in it.
my family; the greatest loves of my life.
Tuesday, May 5, 2020
Eyes.
May 5, 2020
Day 1,315
Thankful for:
kisses and hugs from the ones I love.
being stuck at home with the ones I love.
a lovely day outside.
Higbee; I love his brown eyes.
Tobin; I love his eyes that look like the Amazon river.
Adelyn; I love her eyes that look like blue ocean water.
Matt; I love his eyes that always look on me with love.
Monday, May 4, 2020
Fresh Monday mornings.
May 4, 2020
Day 1,314
Thankful for:
fresh Monday mornings.
days when my husband is home.
walks in the woods with my family.
a very cool and rainy spring.
yarn.
the smell of our home.
the feel of the wood floor under my feet.
Sunday, May 3, 2020
Home; the word, the place, the feeling.
May 3, 2020
Day 1,313
Thankful for:
Sundays.
family dinners.
home; the word, the place, the feeling.
short lists of things to be thankful for.
Saturday, May 2, 2020
A very fine Saturday.
May 2, 2020
Day 1,312
Thankful for:
Saturday.
a day spent entirely outside.
music.
hammocks.
bikes.
warm sun, cool breeze, blue sky.
playing catch in the yard.
playing badmitton in the yard.
a long bike ride/walk with my family.
time to play with babies.
time to relax with my parents.
lemon cake.
cuban sandwiches.
laughter.
spider eyes.
bunnies in the yard.
Higbee running and playing in the yard.
a very fine Satursday.
Day 1,312
Thankful for:
Saturday.
a day spent entirely outside.
music.
hammocks.
bikes.
warm sun, cool breeze, blue sky.
playing catch in the yard.
playing badmitton in the yard.
a long bike ride/walk with my family.
time to play with babies.
time to relax with my parents.
lemon cake.
cuban sandwiches.
laughter.
spider eyes.
bunnies in the yard.
Higbee running and playing in the yard.
a very fine Satursday.
Friday, May 1, 2020
Friday nights.
May 1, 2020
Day 1,311
Thankful for:
Friday nights.
not having to set my alarm for the next day.
bike rides and walks with my babies.
Matt will be home tomorrow.
the weekend is coming.
a dinner of rice, brussel sprouts, sausage, and feta cheese in a bowl.
Day 1,311
Thankful for:
Friday nights.
not having to set my alarm for the next day.
bike rides and walks with my babies.
Matt will be home tomorrow.
the weekend is coming.
a dinner of rice, brussel sprouts, sausage, and feta cheese in a bowl.
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