Sunday, April 30, 2017

Today was good.

April 12, 2017
Day 212

There was time to lay on the couch and rest today.

There was time to read funny books.

Tobin made me read, "Too Many Daves," about 10 times today. He laughs really hard when I read it.

There was lots of snuggles and cuddles today.

There was fuzzy after bath hair while we read books in bed tonight.

There was ice cream after dinner.

At this moment, I'm laying in bed next to my dear husband, in our beautiful home, with our babies sleeping in their rooms, and Dr. Quinn is on. This moment is sweet.

I got to hold baby Odette and marvel at her fuzzy duck hair today.

I got to talk to my sweet mama on the phone tonight. I always love chatting with my mom.

Tomorrow starts teacher appreciation week at school. It should be a fun week full of little surprises.

Higbee was sleepy and cuddly today.

Thankful. 

Saturday, April 29, 2017

Peanut Butter to my Jelly.

April 29, 2017
Day 211

For Patty.

For birthdays.

For little sticks because you're out of candles.

For laughter.

For conversation.

For dogs.

For kids.

For family.

For baby baths.

For a babysitting gig today. It was only about an hour, her name was Odette, and she slept almost the whole time, but it was the best babysitting job ever.

For bedtime.

For Patty. Yes, I know I said her name once before on this list, but today's her birthday, and she is literally the best person I know. She makes me happy on sad days. I wrote in her birthday card that she is the peanut butter to my jelly. The world is brighter because Patty is here.

For art shows.

For artwork in art shows.

For the sound of Higbee chewing a bone.

For clouds.

For a day left of the weekend.

For a clean home.

For hugs from my husband.

For chats with my mom, my dad, and my grandparents.

For ice cream and cake.

Thankful. 

Friday, April 28, 2017

Quick List.

April 28, 2017
Day 210

It's Friday night.

Dr. Quinn is on.

There was pizza for dinner.

There was lots of family time tonight.

Tomorrow is Saturday and I get to babysit Odette.

I get to sleep now. I'm exhausted!

Thursday, April 27, 2017

"You're the love of my life."

April 27, 2017
Day 209

     I picked up Tobin from Patty's house today after school, and as we were driving home the sweetest thing happened. I told Tobin that I was thankful for him because he always tells me how beautiful I am and he makes me feel so pretty. And my amazing son replied with this: "Mama, you're the love of my life." For real. No joke. My four year old son said that exact sentence to me.

     I was laying in bed with Adelyn after we read tonight. She cuddled very close to me and told me that the best part of her day was when she gets to cuddle in bed with me and read.

     I love getting texts from my husband during the day. And I love the fact that he waits up for me when I go out at night.

     I have the best friends at work. They love me, they care about me, they help me, and they support me. I love where I work.

     I got to hold baby Odette today!

     I got to hold my own babies today. One should never take for granted hugs, kisses, or cuddles.

     Higbee and I had a fun walk after I put the kids to bed tonight. He loves to go visiting.

     There is Dr. Quinn to watch at night.

     Thankful. 

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

More vs. More Than Enough.

April 26, 2017
Day 208

Tomorrow is Thursday. And then it's Friday. And the day after that is the day we don't set the alarm and I can't wait.

Higbee is always very happy to see me when I get home.

Matt, the kids, and I had fun being silly and goofy during dinner tonight. We were talking a few days ago about what we wanted so desperately when we were young and dating. We wanted good jobs, a home, and a family. We are literally living out our dreams. We're in the good ol days.
We're there. We made it. Funny how we forget to be overwhelmed with gratitude at the life we wanted so badly and now have. Well, I say it's funny, but really it's more of a shame. It's easy to waste precious time with the concept of "more." The "I want more" gene must be hardwired into all of us. But if you're thankful, you don't need more. You have more than enough.

I'm obsessed with curry and chickpeas lately. It's delicious.

My bed. My bed is so comfortable. I love the smell of my comforter.

Dr. Quinn is the TV equivalent of my comforter.

The sky was so blue today.

Thankful. 

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

I got myself a keeper!

April 25, 2017
Day 207

It rained today.

It was cool today.

My children look so baby like after their baths with their fuzzy hair and naked bottoms running around.

I love putting my babies to bed. I love saying prayers with them and kissing them goodnight. I feel very blessed to have children to kiss goodnight.

We read books every night before bed. Right now, we're reading The Little Prince. I love watching my children discover new worlds through books. We were in Narnia for a while, but now we're reading of tiny planets and sunsets and a fox.

Higbee likes to wrestle and play every night after the kids go to bed.

Matt does the laundry. Let me repeat: Matt does the laundry. I got myself a keeper!

Tobin tells me that I'm beautiful every day.

Adelyn tells me that I'm the best mama in the world.

I have the sweetest students.

There is Dr. Quinn to watch at night.

Tomorrow is a new day.

Tonight, I get to sleep all day until morning.

There are fun things coming up at school.

Summer is coming, and I am excited to spend every day at home with my babies. I cannot wait for lazy mornings followed by long breakfasts followed by fun days.

My sweet husband gets up from bed to help me carry in the groceries. And then he sits and talks with me while I put them away and chop vegetables for my lunch tomorrow.

Thankful. 

Monday, April 24, 2017

Jelly Beans and Couch Kisses

April 24, 2017
Day 206

It rained today. And it was cold. Bonus!

It was a hard day but it was a good, good night.

I had chick peas and potatoes cooked in chicken stock and curry served hot over salad for dinner. And it was delicious.

The PPC (party planning committee, haha!) held a meeting tonight to discuss important mother-son square dance details. Baby Odette joined us, but her input was mostly yawns, sweet sighs, and little whines. Patty served popcorn. She makes the best popcorn.

I have very sweet friends at work. I absolutely love where I work.

My husband and I made up after a fight by kissing on the couch while our kids snuck jelly beans before dinner. Fights suck, but the making up is sweet.

Matt and I spent the night searching for mother-son square dance songs. It's been quite the musical journey. We found a group called Steve N Seagulls. You're going to want to look up their rendition of "Thunderstruck."

My kids were especially giggly and silly today. I love their laughter.

Thankful. 

Sunday, April 23, 2017

Real Ice Cream.

April 23, 2017
Day 205

We watched a movie in bed together as a family today. Popcorn included.

It was cloudy and gray and cool today.

We checked out a new playground before dinner.

Ice cream. Sometimes you just need a bowl of real ice cream while you lay in bed and watch Dr. Quinn.

My mom came to church this morning. I can't remember the last time we went to church together on a Sunday morning.

This week is an easy week at school.

It's going to rain tomorrow.

Thankful. 


Saturday, April 22, 2017

I got to hold Odette a long time today.

April 22, 2017
Day 204

It rained all day today and it made me so happy. It also made Tobin happy. His eyes have been so swollen from all the pollen.

I got to hold Odette for a long while today. She is so sweet and tiny and beautiful and perfect.

We had the best meal tonight. Kabobs, rice, chick peas and potatoes, and tomato, cucumber, and red onion salad. Tumeric, cumin, curry, and dill make me happy.

Tomorrow is Sunday, and it's going to rain again. I adore rainy weekends.

Higbee met Odette today, and he was very interested in sniffing her.

We got to visit with my parents and my grandparents today. I love to be with family.

My kids were basically begging to go to bed tonight. I love when that happens.

My grandparents bought a sweet new dress for Adelyn and a cool muscle shirt for Tobin.

Thankful. 

Friday, April 21, 2017

Friday.

April 21, 2017
Day 203

Today is Friday.

I get to lay in bed with my babies tomorrow and eat popcorn and watch movies.

It's going to pour tomorrow.

Higbee was quiet and sleepy today.

I get to see my sister and baby Odette tomorrow.

There's a girl named Adelyn, and she's mine.

There's a boy named Tobin, and he's mine.

I'm tired, so I'm going to lay in bed and relax and watch shows, and that's okay because I don't have to get up early tomorrow.

Thankful. 

Thursday, April 20, 2017

Pink Snow

April 20, 2017
Day 202

It rained today.

It was windy when it rained, and all the flower petals blowing around looked like pink snow.

I wasn't afraid of the storm like I might have been in the past. Instead, I stood at the window and watched it. It was quite lovely.

I got to hold baby Odette after school.

Adelyn told me that Odette's umbilical cord, "yucked her out."

Tobin used to call his belly button his, "bunny button." We talked a lot about belly buttons in the car on the way home from Patty's.

I love fresh cucumbers. I like to eat them like I would a banana.

My husband waits up for me when I go out at night. And then he wants to cuddle with me.

Tomorrow is Friday.

Thankful. 

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Lisa, Lorrie, Michelle.

April 19, 2017
Day 201

It was cool outside today. It made me feel so happy. I could take good, deep breaths of air.

Thankful for amazing friends at work. Thankful for a good talk on the playground today with Lorrie and Lisa. They listened to me and made me feel loved and supported. Thankful for Michelle who opens my windows every morning so my room gets good and cold for the day. Our AC is broken and I don't function well in the heat. I love friends who get me.

Thankful for little texts from my sister. I can't wait until she comes home with Odette.

Thankful for books before bed with my family.

Thankful for nights when I get to come to bed and relax until I fall asleep.

My husband washed the dishes for me this evening.

My students were so excited for the new books I got for them over spring break.

Tomorrow is Thursday, and the day after that is Friday. I'm ready to get my weekend on.

Thankful for animals. I watched a show on the Galapagos Islands tonight, and it was fascinating. I especially love watching about the albatross. I love their pretty black eyes, and the fact that they mate for life. But it was when I read The Rime of the Ancient Mariner that I fell in love with them.

I get to sleep all night until morning.

I get to wear a jersey to school tomorrow. I don't like sports, but at least I get to be comfy.

Thankful. 


Monday, April 17, 2017

Bug Catcher.

April 17, 2017
Day 199

It rained today. It made me so happy. I needed a day to sit on the couch and watch the rain fall quietly and peacefully.

I'm writing this outside on my deck. The air is cool and quiet.

Tobin slept in bed with me last night. I love cuddling with my babies.

Higbee was lazy and sleepy all day today. Sleeping dogs make me feel so at peace.

Higbee caught a fly at Patty's house today. He's my bug catcher. And he's quite good at it.

Patty's belly looks full and amazing holding the precious life of Odette Isadora. I cannot wait to hold my new baby niece. I keep telling Patty and AJ not to be mad at me if I'm selfish with their baby. I know I'm going to want to hold her all the time.

Adelyn has the bluest eyes, and they're beautiful.

Tomorrow starts the last quarter of the school year. I'm not a summer person, but I got a taste of it this spring break and I liked it. I am ready for summer, but...

I will be happy to see my students tomorrow. I missed them!

My dogwood tree is perfect and lovely.

My dad called me this morning. I love talking with my dad, and I love it when he calls me. It makes me feel special.

I talked with my grandmother for about an hour this afternoon, and it was the best conversation. I'm so thankul for her.

Thankful. 

Sunday, April 16, 2017

The Messy Cross.

April 16, 2017
Day 198

     Before spring break, I did an art project for Easter with my 3rd graders. We made "stained glass" crosses to hang on the windows. I normally don't do art projects with my kids. I leave that to the art teacher. I know that sounds horrible, but art projects take forever, the room gets messed up, and it just ends up being more of a hassle than a fun activity. But against my better judgment, I decided to do an art project, and you guessed it: it took forever, the room got messed up, and it ended up being a huge hassle.

     I was struck in particular by the way the finished products were coming out. The students had to cut out their own crosses, and I was kind of shocked by the way some of my 3rd graders were having a hard time cutting out a cross. There was one cross in particular that I was especially shocked at. It was crooked. It had been taped several times because it had been cut completely in half several times. It was super messy. But this student had nothing but pride for her messy cross when she handed it in to me. In fact, she was smiling and beaming with pride at her messy cross.

     I taped her messy cross up on the window and told her she did a beautiful job. And I went back to that window and looked at that messy cross several times throughout the day. The more I looked at that messy cross, the more I realized it was much more of a realistic representation of the cross than I had demonstrated to my students when I made my cross. Because the fact of the matter is: the real cross was messy.

     I've been thinking on these words today: "I once was lost, but now I'm found. Was blind, but now I see." I'm not saying that I have it all together now, because I don't, but there was a time in my life when I really was lost. There was a time when I really was blind. But now, I'm found. Now, I see. Now, I know that because of the messy cross, there is grace and mercy and forgiveness and hope.

     I'm thankful today for the cross. I'm thankful today for hope. I'm thankful that because of the messy cross, there shines a bright light into the black darkness which can never be extinguished.








I'm thankful for Easter fun. 






















I'm thankful for the best Easter dinner. For Easter baskets filled with goodies. For a great church service this morning. For my dogwood tree. For time spent with the best family.

Thankful. 

Saturday, April 15, 2017

Good Company.

April 15, 2017
Day 197

We spent the day at my parent's house.

We spent it outside.

The kids and Higbee got to run around in the backyard.

We watched an Easter movie in bed at my parents. It's always so cozy to cuddle in bed and watch a movie. But it's even more so when the bed is crowded by all your favorite people.

I spent the morning at Stylists at North and I feel like a new woman.

We had dinner with our wonderful friends, Jason and Jen. They always make such delicious food for us. And it is always so good to be in their company.

Tomorrow​ is Easter.

We're going to have a family dinner.

I'm​ excited for the kids to see their Easter baskets in the morning.

Thankful. 

Friday, April 14, 2017

Shark Tooth Necklace.

April 14, 2017
Day 196

Today was a lovely day. We spent it outside with Patty, Casey, and Phia.

We found a new playground with a big field and picnic tables.

There were many a yellow dandelion to pick today. There were also many a puffy dandelion to blow today.

I graded papers on the deck this afternoon. It was so pretty to sit there under our dogwood.

We went to a special Good Friday event at my mom's church tonight.

We went out to dinner as a family to our favorite restaurant of all time: Delia's. It was delicious as usual.

My grandparents joined us for dinner, and afterward they had sweet presents for the kids.

Tobin has been wearing his new shark tooth necklace all day every day. It's very sweet to see him feel cool wearing it.

Higbee likes to sit with me on the deck.

Adelyn is a very sweet and patient big sister. Especially when Tobin's being a baby.

I get to hang out with my parents tomorrow.

Thankful. 


Thursday, April 13, 2017

Sister Time.

April 13, 2017
Day 195

It was a glorious day. Cool breeze, blue sky and we spent it in wide open spaces.

My kids were hilarious today. They switched outfits, and Adelyn pretended to be Tobin for the day and Tobin pretended to be Adelyn.

Tobin has a new book of nocturnal baby animals, and I love to read it with him because he thinks all the animals are so cute. He says so every time I turn a page.

Higbee howled today.

Patty and I went out tonight and we had the best time. Any time with my sister is the best time.

Oatmeal Cookie Halo Top.

The cherry blossoms are spectacular right now.

Thankful. 

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

10.

April 12, 2017
Day 194

We went to a book fair today. Yay for new books!

Our cherry tree looked especially lovely today.

Tobin and I got to spend the evening together while Matt and Adelyn went to the movies.

Tobin looked especially sweet and cute when he was laughing about squirting me with his squirt gun.

Higbee was lazy and sleepy today. I love lazy, sleepy dogs.

My husband is the sweetest man.

Adelyn Bailey seemed very grown up today.

I got to catch up with a very dear friend on the phone today.

There are 5 whole days left on spring break.

Odette is coming soon and I cannot wait to hold her and smell her.

Thankful. 

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Farm Morning.

April 11, 2017
Day 193

*FYI: Click on each picture for best quality.

We spent the morning at the farm.




Higbee was very sweet and sleepy today. 




I cleaned, organized, and rearranged Adelyn's and Tobin's room today. 

Matt's mom got me an amazing birthday gift: new patio furniture! My deck is such a comfy, cozy spot now! So thankful for Matt's mom and her wonderfully thoughtful gift!

Matt is off tomorrow. 

I had artichokes in my salad for dinner.

My grandma bought clothes for Adelyn this past weekend, and Adelyn is loving having pretty new dresses to wear. 

It was a good day. 

Thankful. 

Monday, April 10, 2017

Haircut.

April 10, 2017
Day 192

Today was a simple and pleasant day.

I like the way my cherry tree looks when it blows in the wind. Especially when the flowers are pink and fluffy.

Tobin and I read books on the couch.

Adelyn wrote a chapter book which she read to us at bedtime.

Higbee's eyes look very sweetly brown when he sits in the sun. Also, he smells like peace.

I'm going to a book sale tomorrow! I love books.

Matt is the sweetest husband ever. I love the way that even his eyes smile at me.

I love when my parents call me to chat and check in.

I love when my grandma calls to chat and check in.

I went grocery shopping this morning. I love a full fridge.

We had a lovely dinner. Roasted sweet potatoes make me happy.

I gave Matt a haircut today. I've been cutting his hair since we were 17.

I'm writing in bed. Bedtime is the best time.

Thankful. 

Sunday, April 9, 2017

Dr. Stephanie

April 9, 2017
Day 191

For a good Sunday.

For a relaxing day with family.

For benches on playgrounds.

For kisses on benches.

For a clean kitchen.

For an early to bed night for our kids.

For Higbee snuggles.

For the way my husband tells me I'm the best and that I'm so pretty.

For The Office.

For fresh, new Mondays.

For Stephanie, aka, Dr. Stephanie. She saved us $200 and a day of sitting in the ER waiting room. Adelyn changed her earrings herself about a week ago, and she shoved the back on so hard that shoved it into her ear. Yes. Into her earlobe. So thankful for Steph's love and patience. And her medical expertise.

For ice cream cones after the back of the earring was extracted from Adelyn's ear.

For time spent at Patty's with my parents.

For Odette. She's coming soon and I can't wait to meet her.

For a day done well.

Thankful. 

Saturday, April 8, 2017

Birthday.

April 8, 2017
Day 190

     Today was lovely. I spent the day with family. We had my favorite meal: corned beef, cabbage, potatoes, Irish soda bread, Guinness Blonde. The weather was spectacular. There was so much laughter during dinner. There was the most delicious cake. And there were so many generous and thoughtful gifts.

     I'm thankful for the wonderful birthday I had. I'm thankful for time. I'm thankful for all the people who love me.

Friday, April 7, 2017

A fine April 7th.

April 7, 2017
Day 189

Today was a lovely birthday.

God must really love me to give me such a cold and windy April 7th. The weather was amazing today.

Matt and I went to lunch.

There was leftover cake.

I got some new necklaces and a beach hat.

Matt gave me a sweet card.

I got messages and texts from so many people today. I felt very loved.

I got to hang out with family.

Patty got me my favorite ice cream cake for tomorrow.

Steph and Mario brought me a lovely gift.

I have the feeling this is going to be a fine year.

There will be a delicious meal tomorrow.

My mom texted me and let me know that my actual birth minute had just passed.

Thankful. 

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Even though this day was hard...

April 6, 2017
Day 188

     I would like very much to write that today was perfect and wonderful and full of sunshine and roses. But it wasn't. It was a difficult day. I had a panic attack. It sucked. Panic attacks leave you feeling like you can't trust your body because it has just betrayed you in such a real, yet somehow fake way. I mean the panic you feel is real, and there are physical symptoms, but the reason for the panic itself is usually fake.

     Even though there was a hard part of this day, there were countless parts of this day to be thankful for. So here they are:

1. My students made me homemade birthday cards. Each one of them was incredibly sweet.

2. My friend Lorrie gave me a beautiful and meaningful braclet!

3. My friend Michelle gave me an awesome to go mug and a gift certificate to the bookstore!

4. My co-workers told me why they loved me this morning.

5. There was an ultimate white cake at work today for me.

6. My student's mom came in with a lovely sheet cake from Wegman's for me.

7. My favorite ladies took me out to dinner.

8. I have lovely flowers to look at in my house.

9. The storm clouds cleared.

10. The calm after the storm was lovely. Same goes for storms in life. The blue sky is always there. It's just that it's sometimes hidden away where we can't see it. But it's always there. Waiting.





Wednesday, April 5, 2017

Five.

April 5, 2017
Day 187

I am in my warm home in my warm bed while the wind is howling outside. 

Adelyn and Tobin love to cuddle while we read at night. 

My husband put pictures in our new picture frames. 

After tomorrow, we're on spring break. 

Higbee has been quiet and tired lately. I love sleeping dogs. 


Thankful. 

Tuesday, April 4, 2017

Baby breath.

April 4, 2017
Day 185

It was a beautiful day. The sun was warm, the breeze was cool, the sky was blue, and the clouds were puffy.

I love the people I work with.

Higbee's eyes looked especially sweet and brown today.

Tomorrow is Wednesday. I like Wednesdays.

My husband bathed the kids and put them to bed tonight so I could go to a PTO meeting with Patty. And because we both found ourselves out with no kids, we took advantage and got pints of Halo Top and went for a drive.

I'm excited for spring break. It's coming soon.

My kids have the softest hands. I love it when they want to hold hands with me while we walk.

I cannot wait to hold Odette. I cannot wait to smell her, and feel her tiny feet, and smell her sweet baby breath.

Thankful. 


Monday, April 3, 2017

Bag full of strawberries.

April 3, 2017
Day 184


It was cool and breezy today.

I love the people I work with. They are amazing.

The kids were in bed early.

I was in bed early.

I have a bag full of strawberries for my lunch tomorrow.

My husband is sweet and loving and caring.

We had leftover turkey for dinner.

It rained tonight. I love a good peaceful rainy evening.

It is time for bed.

Thankful. 

Sunday, April 2, 2017

Lovely Sunday.

April 2, 2017
Day 183

It was a pleasant Sunday; sunny, cool breeze, blue sky.

We watched a movie as a family in bed this afternoon. It was cozy.

We went to a playground with the kids, and while we were there, we saw a dust devil. It was the strangest thing I've ever seen. It looked just like a mini tornado. It picked up the wood chips off the ground and was spinning them around. It was pretty cool to see.

My parents came over today and they brought a delicious turkey dinner with them. We had turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, and gravy. It was glorious.

We had leftover cake for dessert. Cake and ice cream. I love ice cream.

It's April. Odette is coming this month.

Our house is clean and it looks pretty with all the flowers leftover from Patty's baby shower.

My mom and I had a good time having a dance party with the kids in the basement before dinner.

Thankful. 



Saturday, April 1, 2017

Grand Day.

April 1, 2017
Day 182

It was a good morning with my mom here. She spent the night last night so she could be here to help with the shower. It's always nice waking up under the same roof as my mom.

The shower was lovely.

We have the sweetest family and friends.

My aunt Janet's laugh is contagious. Hearing her laugh makes a person feels full of joy.

There was delicious food.

It was beyond good to visit with the best family and the best friends today.

It was cold today.

There was a glorious sunset.

My dad watched Tobin during the shower. They went on a hike and looked for bears.

There were beautiful flowers today.

There were plans made to make plans to hang out with family.

There were sweet tiny pink outfits and baby things today.

Patty looked beautiful at her shower today.

It was a grand day.

Thankful.