Day 434
I'll be honest. I've been dealing with some anxiety and depression. Sometimes, while I'm driving the kids around, or just doing the dishes, I get bombarded with feelings of inferiority. I get overwhelmed thinking about the future. I get down on myself because it's almost summer time, and I'm not where I want to be. Losing baby weight is a bitch. Especially three years worth of baby weight. My mind feels fuzzy, and it's hard to concentrate. But here's what I like to do with all that crap:
I like to drink some tea. Eat some sunflower seeds while I watch a funny show. Laughing out loud seems to heal what's ailing me. I do a bit of crocheting. I read. I lay in my fluffy bed, and I breath in and out very slowly. I say to myself, "tomorrow is a brand new day." And I take all of those bad feelings, and anxiety, and depression, and I crumple it up like a piece of paper. And in the same way one comes up for air after swimming underwater for a long time, I come up for peace. I pull myself out of the pits of muck and gunk, and I look back only once to say a very impolite, "fuck off." And then I sleep. And when I wake up, the day is new. And I can start over.
Thankful that tomorrow is a brand new day. I'm ready for it.
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| Adelyn in her new sports mix class. She will learn several new sports over the next few weeks. She loved it. And it was super sweet and funny to watch! :) |
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| There were so many birds soaring in the sky today, we couldn't count them all. I think they're happy for some pretty days, too. |
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| The best picture I could get of Tobin today. He loves our neighbor's goose. It's funny...this neighbor has this goose, and a raccoon in her yard. Addy loved them when she little, and now Tobin loves them. |
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